WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE, I AM A BLIND MAN WANDERING AIMLESSLY IN A LAND SO OBSCURE TO AN EXALTED ALTER OF HAPPINESS. I AM HANDICAP TO THE WORLD, FOR I HAVE GONE MAD, ENSLAVED IN AN INSANE ASYLUM OF EMOTIONS. I CAN EAT BUT NOT TASTE, I CAN LOOK BUT NOT SEE, I HEAR BUT NOT LISTEN, I CAN INHALE BUT NOT SMELL, AND I CAN TOUCH BUT NO LONGER FEEL. WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE, I CAN NOT DETERMINE WHAT IT IS I WILL DO WITH YOURS TRULY. IF IT IS LIFE THAT YOU ARE SEEKING TO EXPERIENCE WITH ANOTHER, FOR IT ISN'T ME AND IS HIM THAT WILL MAKE YOU SMILE DAILY; I SHALL LET GO OF THE ROPE OF FAITH THAT I AM SO DESPERATELY CLINCHING ON TO WITH ALL THE STRENGTH IN MY BODY, AND WITH EVERY MUSCLE I  RETAIN. I FEEL THAT THERE MAY BE A CURIOUS THOUGHT EMBEDDED INTO YOUR MIND, THAT ONE OF THESE GUYS YOU MAY KNOW CAN BRING YOU TO YOUR CLIMAX IN LIFE. THIS FICTIONAL IDEA BURNS A HOLE INTO MY HEART, IT FEELS AS THOUGH THE HAND OF THE DEVIL IS EXERTING AN UNBEARABLE AMOUNT OF AFFLICTION, AS HE SQUEEZES DOWN ON MY MAIN ARTERY . AS IM SURE YOU CAN TELL, I STRONGLY DISAGREE WITH THAT OBSCENE THOUGHT, BUT IF THIS IS WHAT YOU PRAY FOR THEN I PROMISE, I SHALL WAIT UNTIL THE DAY YOU ASK OF ME OTHERWISE. BUT UNTIL THEN, I AM PLACING THIS IN THE HANDS OF GOD FOR HE IS MY ROCK, MY FOUNDATION WHO KEEPS ME BELIEVING. I ALSO WANT YOU TO KNOW IF YOU EVER TAKE ME BACK INTO YOUR LIFE, "PLEASE" DO NOT LOOK AT IT AS TAKING ANOTHER CHANCE, FOR IF YOU ASK GOD YOU SHALL RECEIVE, AND I WILL HOPEFULLY WITH YOU, WALK BY FAITH AND NOT BY  SIGHT IN OUR RELATIONSHIP... I KNOW HE CAN CHANGE THE HEARTS OF OUR FAMILY MEMBERS, AND ONE DAY YOUR FATHER WILL BE PROUD TO SAY THAT I AM HIS SON IN LAW