Wednesday, July 27, 2011

Y.C.O. (You.Chose.Otherwise)

You had me at hello, but forever lost me at goodbye.. If I wasn't worth your time, why should you be worth my cry?

You lead me to believe that we would last forever, however, whenever push came to shove you were nowhere to be found.

So now that I've found my courage, my voice, I speak up when you come back. I say I love you but dignity is a quality you lack, for that fact, I'm fed up.

Fed up for living the lie that I so passionately desired, for that to become truth I would have willingly died.

But no, you said GO, pointed with your finger and I went, and as I did my soul wept. But even after walking a thousand miles away from you my heart u still kept.

But so pointless it was for being in your hands you were to careless, and I see now that I'm worth more than being with a person who could careless..

So with this said, you had your chance, had your opportunity of a life filled with romance.

But you chose otherwise, but I assure you old friends that choices you made was not wise!

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Lonely Girl

Trails from tears running down her cheeks, looking out the window not knowing what she seeks. Tissues, balled up, scattered all across the cold hardwood floor. Love, breaking her heart with guys promising her more and more. Falling for their games that they play and tricks that they portray, thinking its them that she is falling for, little does she know she keeps knocking at the wrong door. But you can not find a single reason to blame her, that would juss add to all the other things that come up screaming to shame her. For defiled relations is all she has ever known. Since her earliest day she was taken advantage of at a trusted friends home. Started off as all simple games, then doors locked and she would have much rather gone insane. "Watch this movie," he tells her, "its what we adults do." To confused by the actions that have been made, he breaths heavily on her like a terrible hurricane, this is all to true. She watches on feeling that no other option can save her. Terrified, inside she's crying out for a savior as her pureness dissolves to ashes. Mother, Father, Brother, Sisters, come save me, I need you now, but to afraid that they treat her like trash. For months, this goes on with no one around her not knowing a single ounce of her pain. A smile is fiercely painted on her face, not wanting her family to get involved with this bitter taste. So she juss continues on looking for love, continues on yearning for anothers hug... But loneliness is all she ever found, stuck in her room with cold wooden floors, and silence is her only sound...

Lonely Girl

Trails from tears running down her cheeks, looking out the window not knowing what she seeks. Tissues, balled up, scattered all across the cold hardwood floor. Love, breaking her heart with guys promising her more and more. Falling for their games that they play and tricks that they portray, thinking its them that she is falling for, little does she know she keeps knocking at the wrong door. But you can not find a single reason to blame her, that would juss add to all the other things that come up screaming to shame her. For defiled relations is all she has ever known. Since her earliest day she was taken advantage of at a trusted friends home. Started off as all simple games, then doors locked and she would have much rather gone insane. "Watch this movie," he tells her, "its what we adults do." To confused by the actions that have been made, he breaths heavily on her like a terrible hurricane, this is all to true. She watches on feeling that no other option can save her. Terrified, inside she's crying out for a savior as her pureness dissolves to ashes. Mother, Father, Brother, Sisters, come save me, I need you now, but to afraid that they treat her like trash. For months, this goes on with no one around her not knowing a single ounce of her pain. A smile is fiercely painted on her face, not wanting her family to get involved with this bitter taste. So she juss continues on looking for love, continues on yearning for anothers hug... But loneliness is all she ever found, stuck in her room with cold wooden floors, and silence is her only sound...

Wednesday, July 20, 2011

Dear Rachel

Dear Rachel,
Daily I remember you telling me stories of your life while I would sit locked on to your every word as if I were watching it play out before me in a movie. I remember your loving voice and irreplaceable smile that was the light of my familys legacy. I remember smelling the aroma of your home cooked meals, remembering you making tortillas in my mothers kitchen with your apron filled with powder and masa. I remember me sitting on your lap as a kid while you rocked me back and forth until I fell asleep in you arm underneath your singing. I remember you watching your novelas and I would just sit with you not understanding a single word, I just remember wanting to be near you. I remember your skin as I would pinch it and watch as it slowly went back to its place. I remember when you would hand me money folded up as my mother wasn't looking with a smile on your face. I remember always feeling like you were the only person that truly understood me, remembering the feeling as if I were an outcast and you still took me in... All this I remember of you Rachel, and I want everyone to remember that I will never forget you.

Love,
Your Baby Grandson

Monday, July 18, 2011

Rooftop Romance

She whispers to me softly in my ear, with the smooth vibrations of her captivating voice, "Can I show you something cool?" She asked as I'm chivalrously holding her in the summers night. "Of course." I reply, as she leads me to the peak of her apartment building on the fourth floor. Unknowing to her that the site of being in a high place with no brace frightens me to the core. So as it is, I am with her and no longer have a single fear in my body for she has put me in a place of safety. She then takes me, intertwined by our hands to the edge of this build. Then stands in my arms as we look upon the city lights of the towering buildings. Wishing that this occasion would last an eternity beneath Gods stars, the moon reigns majestically throughout all of the City of Angels. The scent of her hair is still with me at this time, just thinking of the touch of her hands holding mine, warms my bodys flesh. "Isn't this beautiful?" She questions. As I answer yes, in my heart I am thinking that this glorious sight is not even a fraction of her beauty. She then turns to face me and suddenly I forget that the world exist around me as we gaze into one anothers eyes. Should we share a kiss? Yes, why shouldn't we? Total love is rushing all over my beingness as Gods angel is standing before me... But we don't. Not even a peck. Am I fool for letting her slip out of this moment? Perhaps, but as it may be, this eternity has come to just a few minutes in my life. As we take her elevator down back to the ground, we share what I know in my mind will be our last embrace. It kills me but this is how I know things will finally end for us on our journey. But I make sure that this hug is the best in my history, for I know she will forever be the biggest impact in my lifes story! This was my City of Angles Rooftop Romance!

Tuesday, July 12, 2011

SOMETHING FORBIDDEN

She smiles for him in the morning because her feelings demand to direct her action for her ashamed intention. She kisses him at noon for reasons that she must justifies sadly to herself in her own mind. She sleeps with him at night as he tells her he loves her and she dreadfully replies, "as do I". All the while there's another man sprinting entirely throughout her imagination that she is surly in love with. Silent tears rain out of her eyes, drenching her pillows as her longtime companion is sleeping next to her. Depressed, for the true soul mate of her heart is laying in his chambers enslaved by solitude amongst the nightly creatures, as her body begs to be with him. Her stomach, grows angry with her unsettled feels that it kills her daily appetite. As the days pass on, she grows weary and her body begins to shrivel. Its pitiful how the man she sees constantly let's her anguish go unnoticed, as her sweetheart whom is miles away can exhibit her demolished heart without a word being said unto him. Pain being felt between their souls, for they are torn apart by a judgmental society. When will the day come where they both say screw it to the world so they can be happy.

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Because Of YOU!

I inhale emotion and bleed out passion, but the she doesn't believe me so she continues on stabbing! Even as it pours out my pain is not enough, so caught up in the moment until I turn to dust! Declaring that my words are to loud and my actions are silently muted, not willing to see that the sincerity of my sentiment it profoundly rooted. One day you shall understand I never express feelings that I do not grip, so when I exclaim that I fell for her its not because I slipped. Its certainly not caused by the winds that blew, it because of every little thing you do. I guarantee its not one of the childish games I like to play, its because you're the only woman that could make me feel this way. And I know u think its because your a challenge that's new..... But I'm sorry to inform Its genuinely just because of YOU!

Monday, July 4, 2011

As She Leaves

Concentrating on every individual footstep that she takes in the direction away from me. Its to exhausting for me to continue on as simply just her friend not allowing us to reach our full potential. I tried to go on pretending that I could play this part for my love, although I could never have that restriction held over me, depriving me of all possibilities. Hearing, "Sometimes the best way to hold on is to just let go", screams in my eardrums like nails on a chalkboard, but what good is a blustering noise when I'm not willing to listen, with earplugs intact. So as pride comes before the fall, in this case I fell first, and now my pride won't let this desire die... So as she goes, It starts to impact my aching heart drastically once she begins to fade in the distance. Do I spring after her fleet of foot, or forever hide my feelings, hindering my destiny so that she may go on with another....? Concentrating on every individual footstep that she takes in the direction away from me... Just waiting for her to turn to me, and run back into my arms.

Sunday, July 3, 2011

Kicking back as the age accelerates on through the hour glass, never wishing to skip a beat with you, for the thought of a flatline occurring between us terrifies my mortal character.
  Even as the obscurity of the night lingers on passing us by, I'm still comfortable, having you place safely in my arm with the knowledge that nothing can harm you here.
  Over looking you well your dreams transcend through your mind, curious to know if I'm your knight in shining armor at the end of your fairytale dreamland.
  It would be deceiving, if i said i didnt have an unease feeling of losing you, with that placed in my mind, i am frightened of living in a daily nightmare, so as i aspire to keep you near, but still not wanting to suffocate your spirit.
  As i embrace u tighter before the sun appears, it's known to "I" that the night is its coldest, and  its darkest before the dawn, but you bring me a pleasurable emotion from the fever of your love
 Well steadily breathing, upon your appearance i gasp desperately.
  Wondering at a daze; what it is, what is it about you that seems to take the very air that i inhale away, depriving my lungs to breathe.
 The same reason that suddenly stops my heart from beating; and it is a question that is going unasked.
  One would say that it is suicide to pursue something as dangerous as you, deadly to my body, yet quenching to my lust for love.
  Like an essence in a syringe, being injected into my vain, seeking you with cravings of your emotion into my blood stream
  Yearning for your voice, to what appears to be that of an angle in my disillusion of my vision.
  The anatomy of yours brings pain to mine as i am sitting in hunger for our next encounter, with the attention like that of a drug addict, fully convene to you.
  I impatiently await, not comprehending the delay of your affection towards i. which would cure me of my infectious disease of love
YOUR BEAUTY IS SOMETHING THAT CAN NOT BE APPRAISED, FOR IT IS FAR MORE VALUABLE THAN ANY OTHER MATERIALISTIC POSSESSION THAT ONE COULD HAVE.
  THE SENSITIVITY OF YOUR PROFOUND SMILE MAKES ONE WANT TO EMBRACE THE WARMTH OF YOUR ALLURING HEART AND ENGAGE WITH YOUR EVER SO DELICATE LIPS.
  YOUR LIPS, OF SUCH PURENESS, ARE SO COMPATIBLE TO THOSE OF A PETAL ON A ROSE BLOOMING IN THE MIST OF THE FIRST SPRING MORNING.
  AN ENCOUNTER WITH YOUR EYES, SO RADIANT, CAPTIVATES THE SOUL OF MY NATURAL BEING, AS THOUGH IT WERE TO BE HELD IN SUBLIME AGONY IN A PRISON OF BLISS, CHAINS BOUND BY SHEER ECSTASY, ENSLAVED IN A CAGE CONFINED BY A DESIRE TO LONG FOR.
  A DESIRE  OF LOVE, A DESIRE TO LOVE.
  THUS FAR IT BRINGS ME TO YOUR MIND, IMPAIRED BY ELEGANCE, YET BLESSED BY THE PURE HARMONY OF IMPORTANCE.
  A DIVINE AMBITION FOR SUCCESS MOTIVATED BY THE WILL OF YOUR LOVE, TO PREVAIL, TO SURVIVE TO STRIVE.
  YOU ARE NOT A ONE IN A MILLION, YOU ARE A ONE AND ONLY, SOMEONE SPECIAL TO MY HEART, A BEAUTY WHO IS ANGELIC, AND YOUR LOVE IS A VIRTUE!
APPREHENDING YOUR DISCREET MOANS AS THE EARTHS WATER APPROACHES ASHORE ONTO ITS DELICATE, WARMING SAD. HOLDING YOU SO SECURELY IN MY ARMS, WELL YOU SAVOR MY AFFECTIONATE SHAFT AS IT SLIDES DEEPLY IN BETWEEN YOUR FIRM LEGS AND ON INTO YOUR WET BODY. HEARING ALL THE SCREAMS OF THE PEOPLE WHILE THEY RIDE THEIR LIGHTED UP ROLLER COASTER THROUGHOUT THE NIGHT; THIS CAN NOT COMPARE TO ALL THE EXCITEMENT THAT I FEEL RUSHING WITHIN MY VEINS . FEELING THE THRUST OF YOUR HIPS AS THEY WORK THEIR WAY BACK AND FORTH WITH MY ERECTION PENETRATING ONWARD. DURING THIS TIME I THEN LOOKED DOWN TOWARDS YOUR BACKSIDE TO ADMIRE THE WAY YOUR PANTIES; THAT WHICH ARE ABSORBED IN YOUR WETNESS; HOW THEY FLATTER YOUR REAR, WHICH DELIVERED ME WITH AN EVEN BIGGER AROUSAL. THEN, THE URGE WHICH IS THAT OF YOUR DESIRE TO MOUNT UP ON TOP OF MY BODY BRINGS US ABOARD THE CLIFF SIDE. YOUR KISSES ARE SO SOOTHING, AND YOUR TONGUE MOVES SO RAPID, AS THE PACE OF OUR HEART RATES ACCELERATE, I MOVE TO YOUR MOIST LIPS, TASTING SO DELICIOUS TO MY TASTE BUDS. YOUR DISCREET MOANS SUDDENLY GROW MORE AND MORE OVERWHELMING, PRIOR TO YOUR ORGASMIC SENSATION. SO I STOP SO YOU CAN INDEED TAKE CONTROL OF THIS OCCASION, WITH OUR BODIES NOW FULLY BARE TO ANOTHER, YOU STRADDLE MY SOUL WITH YOUR ROSE PETAL LIKE SKIN, GRINDING ME WITH YOUR FULL MOMENTUM PUSHING AHEAD, POUNDING EACH OTHER RIGOROUSLY UNTIL I GIVE YOU YOUR FULL RELEASE... THEN IT COME, AS I HOLD YOUR BODY TIGHTER THAN EVER BEFORE. YOU SCREAM, AS I PROCEED TO KISS EVERY INCH OF YOUR BODY. 
UNDOUBTEDLY YOU STAND ALONE, AS THE HIGHLY APPRAISED CREATOR OF MY AFFECTION. AS YOU DEPICT YOUR BASHFUL ASPIRATIONS THROUGH THE GATEWAYS TO YOUR SOUL, I POSITIVELY CONCEIVE THE AUTHENTICITY OF MY SOL ABILITY OF RECOGNIZING THIS. I CAN APPRECIATE THE ACTUALITY OF OTHER INDIVIDUALS WHO WILL LOOK YOU IN THE EYES TO IN FACT PROCLAIM YOU AS A BEAUTIFUL WOMAN, BUT IT IS ONLY I, THAT CAN ABSOLUTELY  LOOK "INTO" YOUR EYES AND TRULY SEE HOW BEAUTIFUL YOU MOST RESPECTFULLY ARE. FAITHFULLY BUT FRANTICLY I CRAWL TO THE FOOT STEPS OF THE LORD DAILY, AS  I DRAG MY BODY MILES UPON END, I EAGERLY REQUEST THAT HE DEMONSTRATE MY DEVOTION TO YOU, IN A VISION. SO EITHER I AM SURROUNDED BA AN ABUNDANCE OF YOUR MORTAL PASSION OR I HAVE EMBARKED ON AN INSPIRING JOURNEY THAT CAN SEEMINGLY BE CONSIDERED NEAR TO INSANITY..... ONE DAY YOU WILL LET ME KNOW 
WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE, I AM A BLIND MAN WANDERING AIMLESSLY IN A LAND SO OBSCURE TO AN EXALTED ALTER OF HAPPINESS. I AM HANDICAP TO THE WORLD, FOR I HAVE GONE MAD, ENSLAVED IN AN INSANE ASYLUM OF EMOTIONS. I CAN EAT BUT NOT TASTE, I CAN LOOK BUT NOT SEE, I HEAR BUT NOT LISTEN, I CAN INHALE BUT NOT SMELL, AND I CAN TOUCH BUT NO LONGER FEEL. WITHOUT YOU IN MY LIFE, I CAN NOT DETERMINE WHAT IT IS I WILL DO WITH YOURS TRULY. IF IT IS LIFE THAT YOU ARE SEEKING TO EXPERIENCE WITH ANOTHER, FOR IT ISN'T ME AND IS HIM THAT WILL MAKE YOU SMILE DAILY; I SHALL LET GO OF THE ROPE OF FAITH THAT I AM SO DESPERATELY CLINCHING ON TO WITH ALL THE STRENGTH IN MY BODY, AND WITH EVERY MUSCLE I  RETAIN. I FEEL THAT THERE MAY BE A CURIOUS THOUGHT EMBEDDED INTO YOUR MIND, THAT ONE OF THESE GUYS YOU MAY KNOW CAN BRING YOU TO YOUR CLIMAX IN LIFE. THIS FICTIONAL IDEA BURNS A HOLE INTO MY HEART, IT FEELS AS THOUGH THE HAND OF THE DEVIL IS EXERTING AN UNBEARABLE AMOUNT OF AFFLICTION, AS HE SQUEEZES DOWN ON MY MAIN ARTERY . AS IM SURE YOU CAN TELL, I STRONGLY DISAGREE WITH THAT OBSCENE THOUGHT, BUT IF THIS IS WHAT YOU PRAY FOR THEN I PROMISE, I SHALL WAIT UNTIL THE DAY YOU ASK OF ME OTHERWISE. BUT UNTIL THEN, I AM PLACING THIS IN THE HANDS OF GOD FOR HE IS MY ROCK, MY FOUNDATION WHO KEEPS ME BELIEVING. I ALSO WANT YOU TO KNOW IF YOU EVER TAKE ME BACK INTO YOUR LIFE, "PLEASE" DO NOT LOOK AT IT AS TAKING ANOTHER CHANCE, FOR IF YOU ASK GOD YOU SHALL RECEIVE, AND I WILL HOPEFULLY WITH YOU, WALK BY FAITH AND NOT BY  SIGHT IN OUR RELATIONSHIP... I KNOW HE CAN CHANGE THE HEARTS OF OUR FAMILY MEMBERS, AND ONE DAY YOUR FATHER WILL BE PROUD TO SAY THAT I AM HIS SON IN LAW
MY HEART SCREAM OUT FOR YOUR LOVE LIKE A BALD EAGLE SOARING HIGH, ELEVATED SO EVERYONE WILL HAVE TO SEE IT NO MATTER WHERE THEY STAND. AND WHEN IT YELLS, IT WILL BE AS IF THE LORD HAS PLACED MARVELOUS SPEAKERS THROUGHOUT THE WORLD AND SET ALONGSIDE EVERYONE'S DIRECT PASSAGEWAY TO THEIR EARDRUMS. MY DRIVE FOR YOUR HAPPINESS ARE LIKE THE WINGS OF THIS EXALTED CREATURE; WITH ITS WINGSPANS STRETCHING ACROSS GOD'S SOFT BLUE SKY. SO MIGHTY, AS IT BREAKS THROUGH THE WINDS SEEMINGLY AN UNSTOPPABLE FORCE IN THE HEAVENS ABOVE, THESE ARE WHAT KEEPS ME HOVERING THROUGH LIFE. MY FEELINGS FOR YOU ARE SIMILAR TO THE TALONS OF THE BIRD, NONE OUT THERE ARE AS STRONG, NOR AS PRECISE BUT STILL GENTLE. MY EMOTIONS FOR YOU WILL ALLOW ME TO LATCH ON WHATEVER IT IS YOU WISH FOR, WEATHER IT BE FOR PROTECTION OR COMFORT, TO BUILD YOU A HOME OR TO HUNT TO FOR FOOD TO FEED YOUR HUNGER. MY DREAMS, MY DREAMS FOR OUR FUTURE ARE LIKE THE EYES OF THIS MAGNIFICENT EAGLE. IT CAN STARE FAR OFF INTO THE LAND AND SEE WHAT IT IS, THAT IT'S SEARCHING FOR. IT SEES ITS GOALS, AND ITS DESTINATIONS, AS I CAN SEE FAR INTO OUR FUTURE; I CAN SEE WHERE WE WILL WANT TO BE. I WILL USE "ALL" OF THESE THINGS TO WIN YOU BACK AND TO BRING US TO AREA OF BLISS. FOR I KNOW HOW HARD I WILL HAVE TO FLAP MY WINGS OF DRIVENESS, HOW STRONG AND HOW FAST, I KNOW HOW CONSISTENT I WILL HAVE TO REMAIN TO THERE. I KNOW WHEN TO USE MY SCREAMS OF LOVE, IF ITS TO EARLY I COULD FRIGHTEN EVERYTHING AWAY BEFORE I GET THERE AND MISS MY TARGET. I KNOW WHEN TO REACH DOWN TO GRAB A HOLD OF OUR DESTINY WITH MY TALONS OF EMOTION, FOR IF I WAIT TO LONG, I MAY JUST PASS IT BY. BUT AS A WHOLE I WILL SWEEP YOU OFF YOUR FEET TO CARRY YOU OFF INTO THE SUNSET. 
I WANT TO BE THE VERY REASON WHY IT IS THAT YOU SMILE; IN THE MORNING WHEN YOU WAKE, TO A COLORFUL ILLUMINATED PAINTED SKY. WHEN AS YOU SMELL THE VIVID FRESH AIR, TO YOU IT WILL BE AN  IMITATION OF OUR LOVE. I WANT TO BE THE MAN YOU CAN DEPEND ON; IN YOUR TIMES OF NEED OR TIMES OF PLEASURE I WILL FOREVER HAVE THE URGENCY TO PLEASE YOU AND YOUR FAMILY. SO THAT AT EVERY MOMENT YOU WILL BE ASTONISHED TO SAY I AM THE MAN YOU ARE IN LOVE WITH. I WANT TO BE THE MAN THAT YOU TELL YOU LOVE. I WANT TO BE THE MAN YOU HOLD ON TO EVERY NIGHT. I WANT TO BE YOU WISH TO HAVE A FAMILY WITH. I WANT TO BE THE MAN YOU CAN COME TO WITH ANY NEED. I WANT TO BE THE MAN YOU ALWAYS THINK OF. I WANT TO BE THE MAN YOU WANT TO MARRY. I WANT TO BE THE MAN YOU SPEND THE REST OF YOUR LIFE WITH. BECAUSE I KNOW YOUR THAT WOMAN FOR ME AND IF YOU PERMIT ME, I KNOW I CAN BE HIM TEN FOLDS!
MY HEART IS SO SNUGLY WRAPPED IN A BLANKET, WOVEN TOGETHER BY YOUR PASSIONATE LOVE. IN MY DAYS WHERE I WILL BE AT MY COLDEST, AN IN MY NIGHTS WHERE ALL I SEE IS BLACKNESS, YOU REMIND ME WHY I WISH TO SHINE IN MY TOUGHEST TERMS OF MY LIFE. LIKE A SOLE CANDLE BURNING SO BRIGHT AMONGST THE LONELINESS; YOU SHINE, SHOWING ME MY WAY, THE LIGHT UNTO MY PATH . YOUR LOVE BURNS DEEP INTO MY SOUL AND IS THE ONLY THING THAT BRINGS ME HEAT. YOUR LOVE, YOUR LIGHT, SO STRONG NEVER FLICKERING NO MATTER HOW HARD THE WINDS MAY BLOW. NOTHING IN THIS GALAXY WILL PROVIDE THE COMPLETE EMOTION YOUR AFFECTION DELIVERS TO ME. AS WE RELAX NEXT TO ONE ANOTHER I FEEL EACH AND EVERY ONE OF YOUR BREATHS, INHALED AND EXHALE. EVERY BEAT IN YOUR HEART, POUNDING LIKE A DRUM, DEMONSTRATING AN  ANGELIC PSALM TO MY HEART. WITHOUT YOU, IT IS AS IF MY LIFE UNRAVELS TO DESTRUCTION. NEVERTHELESS WITH YOU, AS YOU ARE HERE WITH ME IN THIS ERA, WE BECOME INTERTWINED TO BE THE STRONGEST & MOST MAJESTIC QUILT THAT ANYONE WILL EVER LAY THEIR EYES UPON

TIMELESS

SPECTATING  AS THE YEARLY SEASONS TRANSFORM INTO THE NEXT; LEAVES FALL FROM THE STEMS OF THEIR TREES. RAINS SHOWER, PENETRATING DEEP INSIDE THE EARTHS SOIL. PLANTS GROW AS FLOWERS BLOOM IN THE SUN'S PRECIOUS LIGHT & LIFE EXCELS ON WARD. BABIES AGE AND DEVELOP INTO ADULTS, ADULTS BECOME MATURE, AS THEY GET PUSHED INTO ELDERS, AND OUR ELDERS SIT BACK AS THEY REMINISCE ABOUT IT ALL. REMEMBERING BACK TO A TIME WHERE THEY HAD NO FEARS, NO WORRIES, AND MADE SOMETHING OF THEMSELVES. BUT AS FOR ME, MY MONEY, MY TIME, MY LIFE WOULD ALL BE WASTED IF IN THE END YOUR NOT IN MY ARMS WATCHING THE SUN AS IT SETS ON OUR LIFE. WHAT IS IT ALL WORTH? THERE WILL BE NO VALUE TO THESE AFFAIRS OR TO ALL MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS I MAY FOR SEE, IF I DO EXPERIENCE THEM ALONE IN YOUR ABSENCE, OR WITH ANY OTHER PERSONS, NOT BEING YOU. I CRAVE TO BREAK DAWN WITH YOU AND YOU ALONE, & DESIRE TO DO MY ASSIGNMENTS SO YOU COULD BEAR A LONGING TO FOR FILL YOUR TWILIGHT WITH I. LOVING YOUR PROFOUND  FEATURES IN THE NOW, YET I STILL FIND MYSELF IMPATIENTLY AWAITING THE DAY I GET TO TURN GRAY WITH YOU. ANXIOUS TO SEE HOW BEAUTIFULLY YOU AGE LIKE A REFINE WINE. AS THE SKIN ON OUR FACES WITHER AND WRINKLE, AS ALL THE THINGS OF THIS WORLD MAY COME TO PASS, OUR LOVE WILL STAY STRONG AND BURN THROUGH ALL ETERNITY.

WEDDING BELLS

DAILY, ENVISIONING YOU IN A BEAUTIFULLY MADE WHITE GOWN, SO SMOOTH & SLEEK, FORM FITTING TO YOUR EVERY CURVE. AS YOUR SENSUOUS BODY CALLS FOR MINE, THE LOOK IN YOUR EYES IS FILLED WITH BOTH EXCITEMENT AND A WANTING TO BE FLIRTATIOUS. YOUR HAIR, SO ALLURING AND DESIGNED TO PERFECTION, LOOK AS IF YOU ARE A GODDESS IN THE HI HEAVENS ABOVE. AS THE CHURCH DOORS OPEN YOU HAVE SUCH A REMARKABLE GLOW ABOUT YOU, KNOWING WITH EACH STEP YOU TAKE BRINGS US CLOSER TO OUR DESTINY. YET WITH EACH ONE OF THOSE STEPS, YOU DO IT WITH GRACE AS YOU DISPLAY AN ELEGANT VIRTUE. YOUR SMILE IS QUITE DAZZLING AND YOUR DIMPLES ARE SIMPLY AMAZING, THAT MAKES MY HEART JUMP OUT OF MY CHEST AND INTO YOUR HANDS. WELL THE CROWD WATCHES ON & LOOKS UP TO YOU IN AWE AS YOU PASS THEM ONE BY ONE; YOU WILL BE ABLE TO SEE INTO MY EYES HOW MAGNIFICENT YOU TRULY ARE. SEEING YOUR FATHER GIVE YOU AWAY, ITS ADMIRABLE AND TOUCHES EVERYONE IN ATTENDANCE. WITH YOUR LAST STEP TOWARDS I, I BREATH IN YOUR DIVINE ESSENCES, A CENT SO PURE IT REFRESHES MY MIND BODY & SOUL. AS I DO THAT YOU GRAB A HOLD OF MY HAND, TIGHTLY, AS WE BOTH FACE TOWARDS THE PRIEST; FINISHED WITH TAKING THIS JOURNEY BY OURSELVES AND READY TO CONQUER THE WORLD TOGETHER; AND SO OUR TRUE STORY BEGINS!

My Hearts Dream

NEVER WANTING TO WAKE WHEN MY HEART ALLOWS ME TO SLEEP, FOR WHEN MY EYES ARE RESTING MY BODY NO LONGER FEELS WEAK.
  DURING THE TIME MY DREAMS EXPLORE THROUGH OUT MY MIND,
ITS YOUR RADIANT SMILE THAT APPEARS AND MY HAPPINESS IS WHAT I FIND.
  DURING THE MIDST OF MY SLUMBER I FEEL YOUR COMFORT NOT FEAR,
FOR IN THAT TIME PERIOD, IT IS THE ONLY, WHERE I FEEL THAT YOU ARE NEAR.
  NOT SPEAKING OR MOVING IM JUST GLAD THAT YOUR HERE,
FOR IN ABOUT AN HOUR YOU'LL BE GONE AGAIN & THIS I AM VERY AWARE.
  I LOVE THE TIME THAT WE SPEND TOGETHER IN MY HEARTS DREAMS,
VERY SIMILAR TO GODS LIGHT BREAKING PASS THE CLOUDS WITH A GLORIOUS BEAM
  BUT AS YOUR FACE BEGINS TO FADE TO BLACK MY SOUL BEGINS TO CRY,
SO BEFORE THE DAY COMES WHERE I AM CHOSEN TO PASS I WANT YOU TO KNOW IM IN LOVE WITH YOU AND THAT I DID MORE THAN JUST GIVE IT A TRY

Without You

It seems to me that my nights will once again be consumed with timeless tear drops, in a never ending time glass, continuously counting slowly; seconds feeling like hours, hours feeling like days. And as the seconds pile up upon my shoulders, my heart breaks more & more. Its an unbearable pain, that of an epic hammer continuously pounding on my chest; never being satisfied with the last strike, so the blows grow stronger and becomes faster rapidly crushing my beats. The tears burn as they fall down my face, like rivers of flames that continue to conquer my flesh, night and night again. My eyes swell up & with a stinging sensation, feeling like 1000 wasp repeatedly attacked them, one after another and back for seconds, thirds, and fourths. my body aches with cold chills and then in hot sweats, so near to a feeling of being surrounded by an internal fire, fueled by my loves loss. Knowing you do not want me in the way i yearn for you, for your touch, your voice, your beauty, brings a pain to my soul. Your touch is gentle and soft portraying the reflection of one of God's angels, confirming that he is real, because nothing else could create something as beautiful as yourself. Your eyes, your eyes seem to look into the depths of my soul and touches it with love. Your smile is so refreshing; like taking in the mornings first breath of air after the first winter snow. Your voice is the only sound i love to hear, your whispers, your laughs, your giggles, your cries. I want them all, all of these are reasons why i will never be happy without you, and reasons why i will never stop searching for your love.

Saturday, July 2, 2011

What is This?

Is this LOVE? Or is this just a misinformed choice, made in the blindness of the dark..? Incapable to see the difference for it is still to fresh, yet the sensation of this advanced emotion embodies me. Mastering my heart, declaring to me that it is she who is the one! Why else would time cease at her existence, why else would an elementary second evolve into a complicated eternity spent away from her? Everyone familiarizes with the concept that perfection is incapable, insensible to the proof that she unconsciously provides to me daily to their dissatisfaction. I clinch onto the willingness to swim throughout all the great oceans of the globe, just to gaze my eyes on her shimmering smile. Wanting to conquer the most colossal of mountains in the world to expose to her what a beautiful creation our god has in deed made & then demonstrate to her that she is far more excellent than it all... Who knew her exploding smile could hold me captive, who was knowing that the simple batting of her eyelashes could make me tremble, who knew that her sent could blind my vision with a loud color of LOVE? Who knew? God did!

Sun Rays

Softened sun rays break through silk filled clouds, smoothly caressing your tender profile as you so innocently giggle along side the multitude of your friends. Oblivious to my interest, you proceed onward with your charismatic conversation, as I engage to your every movement. I stay locked to you fascinated by your magnetic pull you have on my character. Bewitched by your simple seduction I'm left in what appears to be a trance, indulged in your humble beauty. Aching to shower you with complements, you bashfully neglect my attentively chosen words that I assert to honor your being. Wanting to fill your touch in public, I grow crazed being powerless. Overwhelmed by your divine radiance, I truly how breathtaking your surely are. Desperately wishing to interrupt this festive crowd with a shout of praise, announcing my heartfelt emotions devoted to none other than you. Nonetheless I dreadfully sink back into the shadows of the cluster of people, unwillingly becoming invisible. Appreciating the facts of my actions, I accept that although you'll possibly never be mine, at lease God was so kind enough to bless me enough with your smile!

A Nights Tale

Lying down beside your diligent grace amongst the wild owls nocturnal sorrows. I persist that it is I, who has indeed gone mad with my beautiful mind imagining this extraordinary celestial being, alluring me to my kingdom of beatitude. Undeniably your love, which is loud in all of its praise, enchants my spirit so nimble. It ambushed my hearts love as it approached me unnoticed, soundless as if it were working like the feathers of that owls wings. Attracted to the flame that is a blazed with in my organ, where it has embedded itself into my utmost desires! With the window open, a breeze passes through, so gently brushing your hair out of your face, placing it ever so perfectly, strand by strand, out of the way. As though it were Mother Nature herself, with a curious urge to partake in this exploration in which she may as well admire your beauty & grace. Even upon a night as this, calm as the heart of God, it confronts you and I with the abyss chilling draft you unconsciously disregard. For the fever that our love produces, heats up our bodies far greater than any sub temperature. Unwittingly your body strides nearer to mine, as you snug up against my arm. Clutched tightly as though our souls have been pertaining to one another already for a lifetime. So with this I say, in your softest moments my love falls harder!

Tears of A Broken Heart.

Shattered, laying amongst the dirt of the floor. Fluids sink out, draining the life from the thumps of its beat. Deflating its figure from full to thin, slowly disappearing... Unsure of how or when this first destruction started to take place.. Nevertheless, as I rest,  utterly lifeless in disbelief of the actuality that this happened. In despair, fragments of glass from the Jameson bottle chaoticly placed everywhere. Lamps, laying on the hollow wooden floors, holes scored into the walls of my life, soon to be crumbling like the rib cage in my chest feeling concave from the effects of a broken heart. My pores reek out of whiskey, even with the mixture of morphine, it can't help ease this pain. Awake, yet unconscious to the world around me, to confused to engage with other people for my mind is wondering with her in my thoughts.. Would I rather go on in this life to feel the pain she caused, just to know that I can still feel emotion, or end it now and board upon a journey to my eternal living..?

SonnyCas